Upset
I dnt know what th hell is wrong with me . I dnt know what th hell I am thinking. I dnt know what th
hell I want . There seems be something inside me that I'm unable to express it out . I dnt know what
it is . But it's making me more & more miserable . I hate those kinda feelings seriously . Freak ! Why
did I turn out to be lidat . I really have no idea .Yet whenever I do that , I'll regret. But some cycle goes over
& over again . Freak . What is it I want . Am I biased? Or izzit bcos alot of things have change ?
Yes,bestpal told me, people Do change.I know I've change, buden my heart change too quickly tht I
myself dnt even know . I wanna treat her th way she treat me, But idk why i just can't . There seems to
always be a gap between us . Closeness? I totally cant feel our closeness , not at all . Time & time this
kinda thing happen . Where's our promises?Where's our deal ? Where's th closeness we used to share.
Where's th time when you always tell me how much you missed him , how upset you are. But now? all
these are gone .Now, we're like just friend whom have just met each other . No secrets.No bonds.
The Same goes to 2 of my closest friend . Not including K . Now,we're totally different from last time.